The Angels say, “Write a blog post.”

So, I’m doing my thing today, when I heard, “Write a blog post.” I of course come back with, “About what, guys?” Needless to say, I have no idea what this post is about.

I’ve been reading a book called I Hope I Screw This Up by Kyle Cease. It has caused all kinds of life-changing revelations in there. One of which is–love every fear. Anytime something arises that we are punishing, in resistance to, or ignoring, we hold that in place. If we love the fear, “come here, fear, I love you no matter what” it suddenly stops all the nonsense the fear is trying to create.

It’s been interesting lately. I have these two sides (like all of us do) where I feel super empowered (like superman!) and it feels everything is going good, then the other side gets all whiny.

I’m a law of attraction girl, but it seems my mind wants to control it all. It wants to MAKE stuff happen, and I know that’s not the way it works, yet the mind still wants to do it. It’s quite annoying. I’ve been listening to Abraham Hicks for quite a while now, and thankfully when my minds get all whacko I start with a stream of better-feeling thoughts.

I get jealous. I get whiny. I feel like it’s all super hard.

That part of  me I still resist. I want to be positive, do my dream, help people with my heart-felt books, products etc… I know what I have to say is valuable, but then of course the other part of me says, this is a waste of time. No one cares. 

Ugh. Why do we have to fight that shit? I even wrote a book called Your Voice Your Choice, and it literally addresses those thoughts. I go through this type of thinking, maybe you can relate. There are so many people doing what I want to do. There isn’t enough customers, and why would they pick me? 

Maybe the angels just wanted me to write this shitty thinking to get it out in the open. I love writing, and it’s like something in me thinks I can’t have what I love. Dang, that’s the problem right there. 

I keep feeling overwhelmed lately, and when I feel it, I just want to go to sleep. I don’t know what’s the deal. I will go strong for a while, then want to hide under the covers from the world. I see people who constantly struggle, and it gets to me too. I know there is enough out there for all of us, I know it with my inner being, but its the other side that fights it all.

Maybe this post is just for me, guys. Maybe I needed to express my frustration with myself about being overwhelmed, annoyed that nothing seems to be easily working, and that my dream seems so challenging to continue. I wish money was just non-existent. I know focusing on lack of sales, customers, followers etc…only brings more of the same thoughts and experiences. The thing is–how do you move beyond that?

Does anyone actually have the answers out there?

I feel I’ve been searching for the answers forever. Maybe it’s because I AM THE ANSWER. Heard that before? Yeah, me too. I know we have this huge, inner being, and this huge inner wisdom. We can tap into all of it, but we are still human too. We have to work with the ego part of us that’s always freaking the f** out about it all.

Anyways, if you can relate with this–hang in there! We are all on this path of uncovering a deeper side of ourselves. I get overwhelmed with the amount of info, and I just want something to truly stick inside of me and make more sense.

Maybe together we can figure this shit out.

 

 

 

The Flow of Energy: Lesson 3

Today, I was lying on my bed and trying to figure out why I was experiencing a few aches and pains in my body. I’m one of those, “There’s a reason why this hurts” type of person. For the last couple days, I have been experiencing energy healing and flow.

Suddenly, it hit me like a ton of angel kisses. 

Duh. All those toxins are leaving my body, and I gotta flush them out!

Lesson 3: Flowing Energy=Detoxing the Body

I could still feel the angels around me and knew they were giving me some Ah-ha moments concerning what my body was going through. Drink water. 

My guardian angel, Morgan, told me to work on my chakras, so I let those flow and spin.

Just like having a massage, exercising, or anything of that sort, the body will tell you that its releasing some stuff.

If you feel drawn to certain foods (for me it was blueberries) make sure you’re giving your body what it needs as you allow energy healing to flow.

Have you experienced detoxing from energy work? I’d love to hear from you!

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God, I Want to Help People!

For a while now, I have been having this burning feeling inside of me. It’s a mixture of emotions I couldn’t quite explain. As I sat at my desk tonight, I pulled from two separate angel card decks. In both decks I got a similar card: laughter. I sat back for a moment and watched some YouTube videos that made me laugh.

I felt this urge to look up Kyle Cease. I’d stumbled upon him through Facebook a while back, and instantly his stuff made me cry and laugh–sometimes together!

As I watched this amazing transformation happen with this lady, I started to cry myself. I had no idea why I was crying, until suddenly it came out of my mouth in a desperate way, “God I want to help people!” Right now instant tears  are springing to my eyes, because it’s this aching desire that I feel.

I see hurting people every day, and my heart aches and hurts with them. I want to fix it. I want to fix all of it. I know I can’t fix every wound, every problem, and help everyone out there. I get overwhelmed by the immense sorrow and struggle everyone seems to face.

Why does it seem so many are unhappy?

As an empath, my heart is to heal everyone. I keep telling myself, “You can’t fix them. They have to choose to fix themselves.” And in reality, we’re not broken. We just keep getting attached to the mess.

Our true essence is beautiful.

My words feel like a struggle–I know they are meant to roar in the atmosphere and shatter depression and change lives around me. I know it deep in the pit of who I am. As an author I push my books out there, but don’t seem to see much impact.

Then my heart breaks and aches, because I want my stuff to help heal the broken, wounded, and lost souls around me.

Then I watch Kyle, and I realize–I need to be okay with it all. I need to be okay with my pain and struggle of wanting to be heard. I need to say, “I want to help people and feel limited, and I love that.” He talks a lot about loving where we’re at, and embracing the moment. When we love even our “mess” we make space for the answer to push through.

When we push against something, all we see is what we’re pushing against. We block opportunities. When I hear about sorrow my inner being shouts, “Help them!” I know deep within me, my voice is going to shake the nations. But, I feel weak. Insecure. Not sure if anyone cares.

I know I can’t be Kyle Cease. I have to be me.

I know that I have a message of love–connection–and empowering people. I know buried in me is the voice of a warrior princess–who is brave, true to herself, and proclaims healing to all.

In my new book (still to be released)–all my guts hang out. It’s been a work in progress, because each chapter I write, I find this new side of me peeking from the shadows saying, “Let me out!”

This world is not going to hell. This world is full of light. We are light and love. We are an essence of Source and the Universe, and God Himself. We are stardust and light. We are souls of great power and beauty.

Shine, beauties. 

Overcoming my own negative voice is the first step to showing you your voice of power too.

I feel stuck at the bottom. Not sure how to get to the top of the mountain to be heard. I don’t know how to share the message of healing, love, and light to everyone.

It reminds me of the show I’m watching: Merlin. Here Merlin is the greatest sorcerer of all time, and he doesn’t even know it. He can’t even openly show his power for fear of what will happen.

We all hold this endless power inside of us–we are literally the Universe itself in a manifested physical form–and we think that’s weak?

We hold it all inside of us. Every particle is packed full of energy that can shape worlds.

The ache is there–but expressing myself every day makes the ache a little less. Maybe this will help you today. Maybe it was just for me.

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The struggle of Expression

The battle of Mind verses Inner Being
 
Often as I’m learning and growing my mind likes to have what I call “freak out” times. I’ll be expressing and being myself, living in my full potential when BAM, the mind (ego) likes to say, “Ah, don’t shine too much. Wait a minute, what if they don’t LIKE YOU. OH NO. Hold on a minute, they don’t agree with you, you should try to change them. Run and hide! Run and hide!”
 
I wrestle with my own expression. We all do. Yet, we want to express, be a unique thinker, and shine. I find it funny how we all feel different, yet we don’t identify that it’s a common emotion. We want to be out of the box, yet we fear it as much as we want it.
 
Those who step outside of the box and shine will usually get ego-fears from others trying to dull their sparkle.
 
Why?
 
Because, it illuminates their own lack of living from their inner being–and that’s scary and doesn’t feel good. When we look at people who shine brightly, generally we want to make them look a bit smaller, so we look brighter.
 
Sometimes we simply just dull ourselves, so we don’t feel so crappy about someone over-shining us.
 
As a creative type, I was born to SHINE. Yet, I fear it too. I battle what I call the writer’s blues, where you want to express, yet fear people’s rejection of you.
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Whoever resonates with me will find me. Whoever doesn’t won’t. It’s as simple as that. I try to tell myself this each day. Even if I get one like, one fan, but maybe that fan will change the world, and hey, I’ll have part of that.
 
The ego would love to shut me and you up. And it almost has at times.
 
Yet I think of great teachers, writers, or people who shine, and I want to do what they do. They give me courage. Let those around you who shine encourage you. Look at them and think, “I have in me the same source of love as they do to shine brightly.”
 
Then shine, baby, shine!!!
#emotions #creativity #letgoego #loveyourself #beyourself #shinebaby

Do you feel left behind?

Do you struggle with feeling behind?

 
Last night was rough for me, and I found myself going through a roller coaster of emotions. Thank God I’ve learned to accept, love, and comfort myself through times of pain.
 
As I drove home, I started sobbing about how I felt scared, behind, and just a bunch of emotions that surfaced. Although, I was happy in watching my friend recommit herself to her husband, after a lot of rockiness to their marriage, it triggered me from my own past marriage. I started to feel not good enough, unworthy, and just a bunch of fear and mess.
 
Would I ever see a man look at me like the way her husband looked at her? Would I ever want to get married again? Would my spouse love me as much as I loved them? How would I know if it would work or they loved me truly?
 
Although, my heart has healed a lot, and I’ll talk about remarrying one day, I still get huge fears that POP up and tell me NO WAY. As I drove, and sobbed my face off, I talked to God and He said, “I accept you where you’re at, Tash. It’s okay the stage you’re at right now. You’re not them, and they aren’t you. You don’t need to force yourself to be where others are at.”
 
As I went, I really felt Jesus comforting me, and telling me over and over how He’d walk with me every step. This in itself is a miracle. I touch on my spiritual story in my new book (yet to be released), my trust in Jesus was shattered from my past. The fact that I now trusted Him enough to be with me was a miracle in itself.
 
Through a bunch of emotion, I finally accepted that I was okay with my stage in life, and it didn’t make me less than others even though I wasn’t married, having kids, or having a white picket fence yet.
 
Struggling with “left behind” feelings is TOUGH. If you are divorced, older and not married, desiring children, wanting a healthy relationship, or haven’t fulfilled your dreams yet, I understand your struggle.
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The first step to healing, is accepting where you’re at. Accept you. It’s OK you’re at where you’re at. And from that acceptance, you can go forward. I spent so much emotional energy on regret, shame, blame, and fear, that I was exhausted in the past.
 
The fact that I’m even dating (without tons of emotional blowups, like with my last boyfriend) is a healing message. Although, my fears pop up about loving like I did in the past, I can accept my relationship right where its at.
 

I can accept me right where I’m at.

 
It’s okay to cry. It’s okay to feel crappy. It’s okay if you feel left out, left behind, and broken. Accept that. When you love every emotion, it starts to HEAL YOU. When you beat yourself up for not being better (or fill in the blank) all it creates is more PAIN.
 
I’ve come to realize too if pain comes up that’s GOOD. I know that sounds crazy, but obviously there was still pain there to come out. Weddings are still hard on me, and seeing people recover from the brink of divorce is also hard on me, or hearing about divorce in general. But, I also know that my story isn’t their story. What I faced was different, and beating myself up for that doesn’t help anyone.
 
Accept where you’re at. You’re doing great. You’re moving forward one step at a time. You’ve got this, darlings. Choose your own path a day at a time.
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How to Declutter: Creating Space Within #declutter

SPACE.

What comes to mind when you think of that word? Probably galaxies far, far away…stars…aliens?

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I want to talk about a whole different kind of space today.

Are you cluttered up inside? Do you have space?

I was meditating the other day when I asked, “What do I do to market better?” This is something that’s always on a creative artist’s mind.

As I sat there the most unusual answer came to me. “Space in yourself to manifest.”

I was baffled a bit by this answer, because of course I’m thinking I’d hear, “Work harder, post more, email lists, blah, blah.” Then I go and hear something about space? Huh?

This is the message I received:

“Space in yourself to manifest. Space in the mind is a powerful tool to manifest. Emotional distance between you and your goal hinders it. Space to create is the  most powerful. Clear out space. Clear out mind clutter, soul clutter, and old chatter. Old emotions block up the space to create. FEEL them fully. People fill their heads with noise. You want to empty the head of noise. Mind noise prevents people from actually listening. Space is formed by clearing the noise.”

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Whether this was my spirit talking, Holy Spirit, or an angel, I’m unsure, but it continued with these steps:

Step 1: Noise reduction. There isn’t a “no noise” switch or solution, but there is resources for less noise. Emotional noise is a real thing in the air. Pollution of real emotions happens–but you can filter it.

Step 2: Breathing. Learn it. Do it.

Step 3: Repeat Step 4–laugh at all life. Keep it light–keep it fun. (I received step 4 before 3)

Step 4: Take these steps seriously, but also learn to see humor in all life.

This was the final piece of info I received:

Be present as much as possible. Create less noise pollution in yourself and others. Others FEED on emotional disturbances. They thrive on it. Create less “drama” for the masses to feed on. Let go of the need to feed.

 

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How can you cure depression naturally? #depression #anxiety

 

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How do you avoid depression?

Why is there such a raging amount of people suffering from this mental illness? Is there a natural way to avoid it all together?

Yes, I believe there is.

If you’re like me, and you look at those statistics above, it breaks your heart.  My natural instinct is to want to help those who are in pain and loneliness. But, therein lies the flaw.

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We don’t take care of ourselves first. 

I’m not saying don’t reach out to those who are need, but many times, those who are suffering from a mental illness got to that place, because they ignored emotions that were trying to get their attention. When repressed anger, continuing sadness, frustration, fear, and feeling held back swirl around on the inside of you, a deeper root manifests–depression. Depression is a state of giving up when the emotions one feels can’t be expressed or sorted through.

So, how do we avoid this all together? Let’s dig in a little further.

Depression and Divorce

My story of depression began with a fairy-tale. I’m not going to go into the mess of divorce right now, but I want to briefly give you a few insights. My story started with my desire to have children. The longer the desire was withheld from me, the longer my repressed emotions built, until I got to the place of depression.

Everyone handles depression differently.

I know for some they don’t do anything but lay on their bed, but the thing about depression is: it has a bunch of ways it comes out.

For me it was being obsessive.

I couldn’t stop long enough to try to deal with the emotions I felt about being withheld my deepest desire. I couldn’t face my feelings of “not good enough” or that my husband didn’t love me. I would ‘think’ those thoughts, but I never let myself actually express or ‘feel’ those thoughts. It was too painful.

This is why depression formed for me.

How do you deal with depression?

Depression is, in my own opinion, a lack of expression in some way. Some people get depressed cause they feel life has no meaning or point. But why? What part of themselves are they not allowing to express?

  • Depression is a form of self-loathing (it is a form of self-expression, because we aren’t expressing what we truly want or desire to ourselves or others.)
  • Depression is our emotions shutting down because it hurts too much not to speak our truth.
  • Depression is formed from desiring something, and anger, frustration, sadness, and pain grows too great to handle.
  • Depression can be triggered from a life event: divorce or loss of some kind (if emotions aren’t sorted through or expressed, it can linger after these events are long over.)

So how do you deal with it?

EXPRESS.

I found this amazing book called: the Courage to Be Creative. It literally came at the right time for me. I thought I was the only cray-cray one out there who felt the way I felt. And, that is a form of depression right there–feeling you are the only one who feels that bad.

The Courage to Creative helped me to see that I needed to funnel my emotions INTO something. Again, like I said, EXPRESSION.

We need expression to thrive. We need expression to live.  Discovering who you are, not by what you DO, but your very ESSENCE or BEING and LIVE through that. Discovering your passion prevents depression, because it gives all that emotional energy a place to go.

We all suffer. We all go through pain. And through our pain we can thrive, if we learn to funnel that expression of pain INTO something. If you are having a hard time knowing what form of expression works for you: explore everything. I’m a writer, a reader, a dreamer, and an idealist. I love to express this way, but I also love to express by crafting or being outside.

FIND YOUR EXPRESSION.

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Disclaimer: I am not a doctor or professional. These are simply my opinions on the subject of depression. If you are suffering from a major illness, please talk to your doctor. 

Sources: http://www.nami.org/Learn-More/Mental-Health-By-the-Numbers

 

 

How to Overcome Anxiety #howtodealwithstress #stress #anxiety

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We’ve all been through a form of anxiety in our lives at one point or another, but how do we beat down anxiety?

About a year and a half ago I went through a divorce, and anxiety and I became unwanted roommates. Dealing with chaotic thoughts, short breathing, and a raging amount of emotions was an every day thing.

How do you cope with anxiety?

  1. Find a place in nature

People talk about exercise, deep breathing, and all kinds of methods, but what worked for me was getting in nature. And, yes, I did this in winter. Bundle up if you need to and get outside for at least 20-30 minutes a day. There is something about fresh air that relieves anxiety.

2. Be in the NOW

I heard the angels tell me, “Look up the book about the NOW.” I had no idea about THE POWER OF NOW, and this book changed me.

Pull all of your attention to the NOW. Not the past, not the future, but what is going on right NOW.

3. Acknowledge your own emotions.

As a sensitive person, I used to dismiss my own emotions. When we dismiss them we build up a higher charge, that can turn into anxiety or depression. In order to cope with anxiety, tell yourself, “I hear you. I love you in whatever emotion you feel.” This will help dissolve the emotions that aren’t feeling good.

How do I deal with stress?

Stress and anxiety are brothers. So, how do we deal with it?

  • Tell yourself to slow down.
  • Do one thing at a time–quit the multi-tasking
  • Take deep breaths
  • Find a quiet place and focus on the NOW
  • Ask for help
  • Tell yourself, “I love you even when you feel bad.”

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